Where am I going to?
Updated: May 26
Years ago that song resonated with so many of us in Evita by Andrew Lloyd Webber...I think more than ever people are asking themselves that question. Where do we go from here when the doors open up and we are all free to travel again.
I think it is safe to say that the lives we lived pre COVID19 will not be the same again - ever - for so many reasons. Some of us have lost loved ones and relatives, many of us have lost our jobs and won't see them again for months to come - if ever again. We will all be reinventing ourselves and our future selves and our children's future will be impacted by this shut down no matter how old they are - this will have an impact on their lives.
So the question for us becomes - where does a traveler go when their wings are plucked? Vivian Swift asked the question years ago when she journaled her life in her book "A Traveler's Journal of Staying Put." A book I recently took out again to admire her watercolors and her thoughts...but what comes after you've taken the time to ponder your existence and decided what to do with the rest of your life?
This is an excellent time to ponder your past and question your future. My husband and I have used this time - as many of you, I'm sure to look at old pictures, sort through old papers, scan the keepers, scrapbook the cards we wanted and purge the garbage...what a better time to ask yourself - where do I go from here? Many of us will need to consolidate households, get rid of the excess and find what truly matters most in life.
We are all being forced to ask ourselves important questions. Why live in New York City or London if you moved there for Broadway and the West End and both are shut down? Why live in London if all the jobs are gone and the culture spots are closed...some temporarily...some permanently? No matter your age you will need to take a good hard look at who you are and what your life will be when this pandemic is over.
My husband and I started working with a life coach before the COVID19 started and as the odds would have it were in the middle of our soul search with Maggie Mistal (who is an incredible career coach) when the pandemic hit. The timing of this could not have been better - but it did put many of the things we had discussed in February into question when April came along and we were both sitting in an apartment in London homeschooling our seven year old and wondering what would come next.
It's May now and we have even harder questions and answers to look for...but we are also learning when to steal the moments for ourselves and choosing our priorities in life. For myself, my role as a mom has taken a front and center role - and it will continue to do so for a while...but what an amazing time to purge, renew, recycle and figure out where we go from here when we all meet again.
Until that time comes, hold your friends close, be grateful for each moment you have and celebrate the small victories. Stay home and Stay Safe...we are stronger together and stronger apart for the time being.
So as the lyrics of Andrew Lloyd Webber's song continue to play in my brain. I send you all greetings from London, with love. Calia
(Eva:) Where am I going to? (Che:) You´ll get by, you always have before (Eva:) Where am I going to?
Don´t ask anymore.